By, Kairi Honda
I am not an Idiot
I am not an idiot.
Condescending glares may say otherwise,
But I am no fool.
I know that they talk about me behind my back.
And I know they snicker at how I act ignorant.
I am better than that.
I am not a moron.
“Why don’t you use words an idiot can understand?”
I hide behind a shield of logic,
So their voices never reach me.
It may not seem like it, but I am trying my best every day
To please those underestimating me.
Everyone around me is an enemy.
They continue to fire insults and harsh words
Thinking that I will care.
With my venomous thoughts of retribution
And angry rants only my loneliness,
The dumb person I see in the mirror is a stranger.
I am not an imbecile.
I know that they sneer at me when I pretend to sleep.
I know that they criticize what I am.
I know they think I’m a sort of alien.
I will be whatever they want me to be.
What they think I am.
But I will not be an idiot.
I am better than they are,
Only saying kind words.
Or just staying quiet.
Keeping to myself that I am not the idiot that they see.